JessicaLeighJones

16, college student. I like things.
thedevilstacos:

a man asked what it is i do, and i informed him:
"albeit i work 40 hours a week at a stable and rewarding job, i am also a full time student double majoring in chemistry and biology. i’m bound to take the MCATs soon, so i suppose that’s another full time job."  
i awkwardly laughed, and he managed to raise an eyebrow in response. 
he informed me he was impressed that i could carry such an academic load, whilst maintaining a steady job.
-x-
i’ve acquainted myself with another man, and we’re texting, and my phone lights up, and it reads something along the lines of: "normally the women i meet are depressed, or abused, or messed up in some way, and you don’t seem that way, or if you are, you don’t show it."
-x-
and so it’s 1:42 a.m., and i’m supposed to be writing a research paper, but instead i’ve spent the last half hour staring at the wall behind my desk.
…is society fucked to the point that a strong, independent, well educated woman has become a source of fear to men?
…has being “fucked up” or “damaged” become a standard for my gender?
…does my ambition and will to succeed serve as a turn-off?
and most importantly - am i not tragic enough to maintain an interest in your life? must i be broken, for you to be attracted to me?
because i’m not, darlin’, and i won’t feign it to achieve anyone’s attention.

thedevilstacos:

a man asked what it is i do, and i informed him:

"albeit i work 40 hours a week at a stable and rewarding job, i am also a full time student double majoring in chemistry and biology. i’m bound to take the MCATs soon, so i suppose that’s another full time job." 

i awkwardly laughed, and he managed to raise an eyebrow in response. 

he informed me he was impressed that i could carry such an academic load, whilst maintaining a steady job.

-x-

i’ve acquainted myself with another man, and we’re texting, and my phone lights up, and it reads something along the lines of: "normally the women i meet are depressed, or abused, or messed up in some way, and you don’t seem that way, or if you are, you don’t show it."

-x-

and so it’s 1:42 a.m., and i’m supposed to be writing a research paper, but instead i’ve spent the last half hour staring at the wall behind my desk.

…is society fucked to the point that a strong, independent, well educated woman has become a source of fear to men?

…has being “fucked up” or “damaged” become a standard for my gender?

…does my ambition and will to succeed serve as a turn-off?

and most importantly - am i not tragic enough to maintain an interest in your life? must i be broken, for you to be attracted to me?

because i’m not, darlin’, and i won’t feign it to achieve anyone’s attention.